Out

I'm out this month even before starting the cycle.

DH is going to be away on business during THE MOST fertile days.

Boy oh boy. Out before even trying. Hmpf.

The only good thing that comes out from this - is that I can indulge in all the wine and bubbly during this festive season.

Bleah.

Better Luck Next Month

I was almost 53% sure that this month was the month.

Except I'm 100% sure now I'm not. The nasty AF witch appeared, and early. I was thankful for the fact that it came right before I went into the theatre to indulge in a 2-hour long of vampire and human making out. Edward Cullen took my mind off the witch and I forgotten I had a tampon in me after the movie. I was just basking in Edward's love.

Um hem... pardon me for that teenage streak. But you see, I had to explain to DH why I love Edward. It's all about the romance and sacrifice which I know is all fantasy. That's what made it appealing. You know it's hardly ever gonna happen in real life. DH is all "whatsup with that whiney Eddy?"... "you never reject your wife when she's begging you for sex...".

I digressed.

I had a tampon in my handbag and as we were leaving the car, I took one and put it in my purse. And then, in classic LadyInWaiting manner, I took it out again. "Nah... it can't be so soon."

What did they say about Murphy's Law? Anything that can go wrong will go wrong. Movie's about to start in 10 minutes, I had 3 tampons in the car, I could either rush to the car park or just get another box of OBs from the store next door. I chose the latter, of course, and pampered myself with a gift for the next cycle while I was there - Pre-Seed.

The ladies on various TTC forums seem to have very positive reviews about it and a few of them even had a BFP on their first cycle with Pre-Seed.

I didn't think baby-making would be so.... technical.

Essentially, it's a lubricant that helps couples who are TTC produce more EWCM so that it gives the sperm a... conducive environment to stay in for about 72 hours before making it to the one and only egg. The stringe looking tubes are applicators for you to insert the lube into your vajayjay about 10-15 minutes before BD-ing. I'm not sure if it'll work, but I'm happy to try it for the next cycle.

Right now, while the witch is here, I can have almost 2 weeks off from babymaking.

Till the next 2ww.

Dilemma

I'm in a little bit of a dilemma here.

If I'm not pregnant this month, I'm contemplating one of the other.

To get a basal thermometre and start taking my temperature every morning to pin down the O-day, in other words, obsess further.

Or, not give a hoot about charting anymore. Just do it.

Torn.

In All Fairness

Someone asked me the other day..."so how long have you been TTC?"

Let's see.

For about 3 months in my previous company, then I decided I'm going to leave the firm after 5 years. Stopped for 3-4 months as I adjust to the new work environment. Wasn't sure what the policy was like in the new place, didn't think it was nice to get knocked up in less than 3 months in the new firm. Turns out, they have a pretty cool policy and I started sometime in September.

So in all fairness, we've been only actively trying for 3 months... but I've definitely been talking about it for ages!

6 DPO

I shouldn't be feeling what I felt yesterday and this morning, i.e. ovulation-like cramps.

My tummy was so bloated and crampy yesterday, it felt like any other o-day, except, o-day was 6 days ago. Unless this time my ovaries decided to take a longer break.

I hate these fake symptoms during TWW... they make me stalk those pregnancy forums and every single feeling I get could be a sign... "was that a sharp stab in my boobs?"... "why do I feel like gagging in the toilet?"


That's because the restroom stinks and the cleaning lady has not made her rounds yet.

I feel like Dr Jerkyll and Ms Hyde.

Oh well.

What No One Told You About Having a Baby...

And it's deeply heartening to learn I'm not alone in turning into the monster I am.

1. Unprotected sex doesnt necessarily lead to pregnancy
2. The longer you try, the more pregnant women spring up around you
3. Living and planning your life in two weeks increment is a norm
4. I wish we had started TTC earlier
5. Women who do get pregnant are very blessed
6. Talking about sex with fellow TTCers would be so easy
7. I am bitter about unmarried accidental pregnancies. A little less bitter with married accidental pregnancies.
8. Worrying about all my talk on TTC might bore my best friend
9. I would sometimes resent the phrase "take it easy and don't stress about it" (Try it and tell me if you don't think about when your AF comes every month!! Or if it "just happened" to you, refer to point #7)
10. Finding out how impatient I am

Source: http://www.twoweekwait.com/what-no-one-told-you

Acronyms for the Uninitiated

So I've been browsing some websites recently, and all those acronyms made no sense to me at all, until I found this.

So when the ladies go "I'm so disappointed when AF came..". Obviously it must be the menses but who knows what it actually stands for. Now I do.. Aunt Flo.

Instead of telling your girlfriends that you and hubby need to make love tonight, you say "we need to baby dance (BD) tonight..". Perhaps doesn't sound as crude?

"I cried when I saw the BFN" - that's Big Fat Negative. You know what BFP is then.

Guess I'll be really disappointed when AF is here, or seeing that BFN even after too much BD with my hubby.

: )